Monday, 20 August 2018

Let's Talk OCD




I feel like now is as good of time as any, to bring up my OCD and do a little post recapping everything about it. I feel like it is important to keep mentioning things like this, the only way to remove a stigma behind something, is to keep it relevant. For those of you who may be new here and not seen my older post, I have been OCD diagnosed for around 5 years. From been quite young, I could tell that there was something that wasn’t quite right, and it wasn’t until I hit 16, that it got to a point that I had to do something about it. After many restless nights, screaming fits and just feeling low, I decided that I was time to take myself to the doctors and get to the bottom of it.

My diagnosis happened almost instantly, they knew just from me talking what it was. Just to let you guys know, my OCD isn’t particular centred around cleanliness. I am not scared of germs and I don’t scrub my house morning, noon and night. My OCD is centred around planning, organisation and routines. Every single day of my life, is planned out in fine detail, it something crops up and disrupts me from my plan, I can break down. The smallest thing can completely ruin my day, I have to stick to my plan, which can make working full time and blogging incredible difficult. Don’t get me wrong though, I do clean my house every single day from top to bottom, but not to the degree which some people with OCD have to do.


I feel like I wanted to do this post, because recently I have been finding myself quite annoyed with some people. Hell, of a lot of people are quick to say that they have OCD. Just because you like your folders nice and neat, doesn’t mean that you have OCD, and it really gets to me. I know that some people will think that because I have OCD that I am a little crazy, it is nothing but narrow mindedness. If people actually knew that I went through on a daily basis, they wouldn’t be so quick to jump on the train of having ‘OCD’.

A lot of the time, I can manage and cope with my OCD. But, when I feel like I am losing control of my thoughts and what is happening in my life, I can go from 0 to 100 within a matter of seconds. The prime example of this was last year as my granddad was getting ill. I had no control over what was happening to him, and I would have given my right arm to help him. To any other person, that is a normal thing to think, but to me it became an obsessive thought in my mind and I thought about it all day and all night. In the end, I completely lost control, due to my obsessive and compulsive thoughts. I ended up having dark thoughts that aren’t even worth mentioning and having to rely no anti-depressants just to give me the motivation to get me out of bed in the morning.

The reason why I wanted to mention this is because I believe that every single aspect of mental health should be spoken about openly and with confidence. There is nothing to be ashamed of when it comes to mental health. By me being so open about what I am going through, with the people that I am closest to, my colleagues and other people in my life, I can deal with it so much easier. Plus, when I am having a bad time of it, they understand and help me through it. I know that there are people out there, who have much more serious mental health issues than I do, and I sympathise with everybody. I just want people to know that they are not alone.

Over the past few years, it has been hard to work out what I needed in my life to balance out my life and to help me cope. I now feel like 90% of the time, I am ok, and I can go about my daily life with no issues and that is thanks to plan my day, coping strategies, healthy eating, being around positive people and been open. Everybody just needs to take time and think about what works for you. I struggle to switch off and when I do, I feel like a weight has been lifted.

I will stop this post here, because I don’t want to turn this into a big essay about OCD and mental health disorders. By writing this post, I am not proclaiming that I know what I am talking about, obviously I only know about my own experience. I only wanted to write this post because I think some people need to understand what it is really like for people that do have a mental health disorder. I am planning on doing more posts about this in the future, because I want to keep putting that message out there and let people know that there should be no stigma behind them!
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  1. Totally know what you mean, girl!! I feel the same when people say they "have" OCD

    BlondieintheCity.com

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    1. It can be so annoying and upsetting!

      Danielle xx

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  2. I love this post so much! I have also been diagnosed with OCD, something which most people do not know about and something I hope to write about in the future. There is a big stigma that OCD is just centred around being clean which is soooo stupid because its a mental process and extends way beyond that- my OCD isn't even anything to do relating to cleaning, its a mental process which can affect many aspects of your life! It's a mental illness that you will never get rid of, you just learn to live with!

    I love how you've opened up about this and are spreading awareness and I hope to do the same in the future!

    Chloe X http://chloelxuise.com

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    1. It is the only way that it will be more socially accepted, so I will talk about it as much as I can!

      Danielle xx
      https://www.fashionbeautyblog.co.uk/

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  3. This is such a great post. I don't have OCD, but it's annoying to see everyone claiming to have it, over little things like the folders using your example. This is amazing for spreading awareness, you go girl xx

    Hannah | luxuryblush

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    1. Thanks sweetie, we've all got to do our bits here and there!

      Danielle xx

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  4. I always relate OCD with cleaning and germs so thank you for making this clear to me. And thank you for speaking and telling your story, it's so important for people to open up and help others.

    Yiota
    pinkdaisyloves.blogspot.com

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    1. It really is, I am going to talk about it until I am blue in the face!

      Danielle xx

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  5. I really loved reading this and admire your candidness on the subject. I am one of those peeps that still doesn't know everything I should probably know about OCD. I even went as far to say once I wish I had it because then my room might be cleaner. I now know that there is so much more to it and I can see how frustrating it is for OCD to be be clumped in to peoples perception of just 'tidiness'. You are awesome and I look forward to reading more from you!
    xoxo Shannon

    www.ThatsSoShannon.com

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    1. Aww thank you for reading. I know that this post doesn't appeal to most people, but it nice to see people reading and understanding!

      Danielle xx

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  6. I have OCD too and it really effects me every day, so it's amazing you've shared your story. I know my obsessive tendencies but I just can't stop them from happening xx

    Gemma Etc. ❤️

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    1. It can be so hard, but the more we talk about it, the easier it should become for us day to day!

      Danielle xx

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