Thursday, 12 July 2018

Hitting A Wall




Today is another one of them days where I just seem to have lost all of my writing abilities. I sat down at my desk an hour ago and I don’t seem to have gotten any further. I must have started writing this and deleted it maybe 7 times already. Nothing that I write, seems to make any sense or read very well. I think I have hit a wall over this past week and I am stuck in a rut. I don’t know what has caused it, but I am definitely in some kind of funk at the moment. So, I thought that for today’s blog post, I would just have a little chat with you guys, because I am sure that I’m not the only person that has ever hit a wall in their life.

I guess that I could be feeling this way because everything with my sister’s wedding is now over and done with. Everything to do with her wedding took so much of my time and effort and I guess now that it is all finished I am feeling a little deflated. As we moved closer to the wedding, it really was all I was doing because in true fashion, my sister had left everything to the last minute and I really had to rally around and help her out. I will admit that it was such a great day and she had a ball. I guess the little OCD bug inside me is just a little upset that all of the planning and organising is now over and done with!


Now that the wedding is all over and finished, it is finally time for me to try and get a little more organised in my personal life, work and my blog. You should see how many spreadsheets that I have on the go at the moment, it is both a little crazy and satisfying all at the same time. I think in amongst all of the planning and things exploding with my blog, my OCD seems to be spiralling a little and it is leaving me feeling rather frazzled at the moment and I need to try and reign that in before I end up going full Monica and hoovering people before they walk into my home, and that isn’t a joke… I have done it before!

I also don’t know which way to turn in at the moment regarding my blog. At the moment I am getting some amazing opportunities through and at the same time I am loving the point where I am at. I don’t know if people have noticed but since the new year I have cut down the amount that I post. I used to upload every other day, but now I only upload around twice a week. I decided to make this change because I looked back on 2017 and I could only remember working throughout the whole year and now having a moment to myself. Even though the workload is much more manageable now, I do wonder if it was the right decision to make, but I know that I had to do it for me.

In much more upsetting news, a couple of weeks back we found out that my incredible nan has breast cancer. To start with, I think we were in shock and we couldn’t believe that this was happening to us again, so soon after loosing grandad. I am the one taking my nan to her appointments for a couple reasons, one because I have a very large car, two because I have flexible work hours and three because I have really been looking after her since my grandad died and we have grown closer than I ever thought possible. She is booked in for her operation to remove the cancer next week and then she will have radiotherapy afterwards. It is going to be a very stressful couple of weeks, but we will get though it, just like we always do!

I think that over the next week, I am going to work as hard as I possibly can and then I can focus all of my attention where it needs to be, on my nan. Of course, I will keep you guys updated on what is going on and where I am at with everything. I feel like I am going to have to try and relax a little to get my mind back to where it needs to be. I am trying to focus on positive thinking and working really hard!

Make sure to let me know in the comments down below if you ever get writer's block and completely lose all direction!
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16 comments

  1. Ah goodluck! I hope you get over the writters block! It happens to me ever so often

    Candice | Natalya Amour

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  2. Take the time you need dear. Spend as much more time with you Nan, I hope she'll get well soon. Just think positive.

    Love, Fads | The Ästron
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    1. Thank you sweetie, that is ever so lovely!

      Danielle xx

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  3. Sorry to hear about your Nan, I hope the op and treatment go well xx

    Beautylymin

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  4. Hope you Nan gets better! x

    www.themakeupaficionado.com

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    1. Thank you sweetie, I have my fingers crossed!

      Danielle xx

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  5. Oh love, I'm so sorry to hear about your Nan. I hope that the operation is a success and she's really blessed to have someone reliable and lovely as you to take her to appointments. I can imagine that's a real relief for her to know she has family by her side during those tough moments. With the whirlwind life has been no wonder you have writer's block! I find that, sometimes, I overthink it and want to produce 'content.' When I step away and just let the words flow with no absolute destination, those have been some of the most soul nourishing posts I've written. Like you did here - I really enjoyed reading this little life update! (I also love the care and attention you put into all your pictures.)

    Laura xx

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    1. This is such a lovely thing to read sweetie, thank you for your kind words honey!

      Danielle xx

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  6. It's so nice of you to take care of your nan like that, I'm sending her all my positive vibes! Medical care is so advanced lately, they can do a lot you know! It's all about staying positive through this whole journey, and I'm sure she appreciates it a lot when you take her to appointments and everything. Keep strong <3

    Love, Charline | Charline Has a Blog

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    1. Thank you for your ever so lovely words sweetie, positive thoughts is all we can do at the moment!

      Danielle xx

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  7. I hope everything goes well with your nan, sending positive vibes and prayers :) it's so nice that you care so much for her and take her to all her appointments, I miss my grandparents so much, I wish I had more time to spend with them especially now that my wedding is approaching, I would love to have both of them there! x

    Yiota
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    1. I completely understand what you mean. It was my sisters big day last week and we really felt the pain of not having my grandad there. I know that I thought about him all day long!

      Danielle xx

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  8. Girl I have that all the time.. try not be feel pressured! It will get better :)

    x Lisa | lisaautumn.com

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    1. We will get there in the end won't we sweetie!

      Danielle xx

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